cleaning up my journal.
deleting old entries
reposting old art.
oganising, and getting fit.
new mac in a couple of days.
life will get good.
So, I haven't, and don't really ever post much about myself or my life here. I'm currently living in Berlin again, I am here for two months having left recently (everything went majorly pear fucking shaped). I was in the UK for a while staying with my uncle in Cambridge, just letting myself recover from the mess Berlin round one turned out to be.
I am staying with the lovely vee but hate not having my own space and am constantly feeling like a burden. Another contributer to this is not having my own laptop anymore and having to ask all the time whenever I want to check messages/do anything on the internet. My old mac was stolen last time I was here and since its been gone its felt like a phantom limb.
I have gone through two and a half men since being here and have yet to find true love.
One has broken my heart and set me up for future failure.
I miss Australia even though I hated it when I was there. When I was in Cambridge all I could think about was coming back here, and now I am here I want to go back. I wish I could have the best of both worlds.
I want to grow up and become a house husband making art in my home. My home will be in a clearing in the forests around Berlin. I will have three adopted children. The oldest will be names Agatha, she will have platinum blonde hair. The middle child will be an Asian girl and I will call her Sadie. Finally, our youngest child will be a coppery red head boy with ringlets, his name is Felix. I will never let my children play in direct sunlight so as not to tarnish and burn their beautiful young skin. They will be brought up agnostic, bilingual and each learning an instrument. My husband will love me and protect me, we will never fight and I will give him everything he gives me, which will be everything I want.
Good bye, Keep my SECRETS safe.
soundtrack to the movie of my life
my movie soundtrack
aqueduct - hardcore days and softcore nights
beck - chemtrails
the smashing pumpkins - rhinocerous
Falling In Love:
fiona apple - o'sailor (album version)
cat power - breathless
marilyn manson - i put a spell on you
PJ Harvey - to bring you my love
portishead - silence
the presets - black background
peaches - felix partz (remake)
comfy in nautica - panda bear
Getting Fucked Up:
the great below - nin
fascination street - the cure
kate bush - aerial
kylie minogue - better the devil you know
Having a Child:
mika - relax (take it easy)
Having an Abortion:
ten in the swear jar (xiu xiu) - famine
Eternal Wind - Square Enix Final Fantasy Remix
space lion - yokko kanno
gang gang dance - gods money V